that about sums it up...

The Zombie Walk - World Record Breaking from Jarrod Pyper on Vimeo.

and yep, it was awesome.

no turning back now

listening to: Journey - Don't Stop Believin'

Look what I did today!

Well, Natalie did it (and did a great job might i add), but i chose to get it done.

Honestly, I like it waaaay more than i thought i would. i really expected to not find it cool, and i was ok with that. believe it or not, i was trying to look... hm... i dunno how to say it.... less. i wanted to give up something that i valued in my physical self. maybe this sounds strange.

i'd just like to say, that i don't think there's anything i can do to make what i'm going say sound anything other than pretentious.
i was really pleased with my long hair. no complaints really. i liked it. other people liked it. that's part of the reason i wanted to do away with it. i wanted to do something that would be humbling for me. i really truly honestly expected to not really like having short hair again. i felt it would look far inferior to my long hair. over time i guess i started to feel like my hair was my best (or most unique/memorable/eye catching) quality. so i wanted to give it up. sacrifice it. ok, so maybe the idea of getting a fauxhawk doesn't seem very humbling, i realize that now after it's done. but i was so incredibly surprised when Natalie was done and I actually loved how it looks. so i tried to humble myself, but i got something quite different.

every person that noticed had good things to say about it. and it wasn't an "oh.... that's... nice" kind of thing. all the older ladies (30+) at work would not stop using the word "cute" and the phrase "oh my God" in tones of awe. friends from work didn't recognize me at first. a lot of them said they thought there was a new guy working. one of my managers saw me while he was talking to somebody else and just stared and said "dude, you are a good looking guy! nice job. man, that looks really good." and if you knew him, you'd know what it meant for him to say it. basically i just got a ton of positive feedback.

so maybe it's a stretch to correlate, but i tired to lower myself and instead was raised. that's something.

anyway. i leave you with one of the movie trailer remakes that emo, kory and i were watching tonight. pretty funny.

everyday

listening to: the music from the game Everyday Shooter

i am quite tired.
i finished my drawings and i'm fairly happy with them.
it's Selvije's birthday tomorrow and i'm bringing her pizza to her school at lunch time.
i will enjoy that.

tomorrow i need to compile/edit a whole video and read a whole book.
yikes.

better get to sleep.

oh, and Heroes is messing with my brain. stop it. stop killing/pretending to kill my favorite people.

forever...

listening to: Foo Fighters - Everlong

this was probably absolutely euphoric to see live. just once, if i could do it like this just once....


"and i wonder
when i sing along with you
if everything could ever feel this real forever
if anything could ever be this good again"

yay musical! (not high school)

listening to: Parts of the musical that linger in my head

saw Sweeney Todd tonight with two friends from my fiction class.
we got points for going to it and writing about it.
but let me tell you, it was waaaay worth it even if there were no points involved.

so good! having seen the movie definitely made it better. i love the dialogue and the bits of humor sprinkled about. it's a dark tale, but it's great. and the fact that all the actors played instruments and performed everything made it even better. these are talented people.

let's see, there was a piano, guitar, two cellos, violin, tuba, trumpet, flute, clarinet, triangle (ha), accordion(!), upright bass, and the occasional hit on a cymbal or xylophone-ish thing. just so awesome. $17 for balcony seats were great for this show! it would have definitely been better to be sitting closer and be able to see the actor's faces better and see their expressions, but i was totally satisfied. the music was just so cool.

now i want to watch the movie. we've got it somewhere in this house. sometime soon then i'll probably watch it.

in other news, i dislike drawing homework almost exclusively because it takes me so long to do. blech.

but that's a minor complaint. life is awesome.
sleep time.
peace.

The Wii is fun

I just wrote a paper on Wii advertisements.

Check out this stuff.






and then go to http://www.youtube.com/experiencewii for a pretty wild advertisement. fun.

some stuff

listening to: Greeley Estates - Ya'll With The Vampire Squad?

some things that are interesting. to me.


mythbusters is awesome. the end is the coolest.

and this is my attic, which i'm going to make a short haunted house commercial in. it's creepy. mostly i posted these pictures here so i can also post them on my work blog. heh.

said so

listening to: The Fall of Troy - Rockstar Nailbomb

good guitar skillz


"October cold can't bring us close it seems
(you already know!)
it's you i know, it's you i chose, but i don't know
(what you want from me)
so saddle up, i won't be your crutch, you ask too much
but you don't know what is coming
you have no idea what we have in store for you!"


i now own a 1997 Buick LeSabre Custom.
it's an optimistic car, the fuel gauge always says it's full.
the speedometer flops around at random sometimes.
but it will all work out. $880 for the car + registration and new plates.
not bad. "that'll do"

most i just want to post this video of a cat.
it's a good one, trust me.

oh money

listening to: Russian Circles - Harper Lewis

this made me laugh.

maybe a little cruel, but this is what can happen when you put your faith in things like money. be ready to be let down by it.

just before summer this year i made a promotional video for Jenison Christian Schools. today i got an email from them saying they'd like me to do some more work for them. i think i'd even get paid this time seeing as it's not for a grade in class. i'd like to do it, for sure. i just need to make sure i have the time. and how much do i charge for that kind of thing!? i have no idea.

tomorrow i may be bringing home a vehicle. i hope it serves me well.

this week shall be seeing Sweeney Todd the musical production. it looks to be pretty sweet. i'm just not sure when i'll be seeing it.

i should get going though.
this week i want to try getting all of my homework done as quickly as possible. we'll see how that goes....

farewell...

listening to: You Look Nice Today - Mr. Owl

my car finally exploded like i thought it would. it didn't last long enough to get it fixed. now it won't start up and what the expected problem is costs more than it's worth to go through. it died on the way to church this morning, luckily nick was driving his car there so he came and got me. it just got too darned hot in that there engine. *sigh*

so we're going to scrap it.

but. i think we've already got a new car for me picked out. i'm almost positive. as long as it checks out to be in good shape we'll be getting it. it's not a stick though. QQ :(
i'm going to need a good nickname for this car if i'm going to like it. i don't find it very likable on it's own. buick lesabre. white. got a little bit of damage on the rear passenger side, but that doesn't bother me. it's got far more space in it than my old car. this car is for utility, not for prettyness. it's not unique. my little Akai, rest his wheels, was much more of a unique car. i felt like it did an alright job of refelcting me, i liked it. the new one... not so much.

but that's why i need to give it a good name. any suggestions? i'll ask again once i have a picture of it and i'll post them.

the end of an era. You were good to me Akai. We had good times. You transported beautiful people in your seats over the years. i'll never regret our time together, and i'll promise never to grow to love automatic transmission. i won't forget that you taught me what it means to shift.

in much more awesome news, i successfully played rock band with my real guitar tonight. not telling how, i already explained my idea to a few people. it worked. i plan on making a video of it because after a brief scan, i don't see that anybody has done this before, at least not on the internet. wouldn't it be nuts if i was the first one to have this idea and do it? crazysauce.

ok, i've got 2 presentations to prepare for, some drawing to do. all gotta do tonight.
yikes.
cya.

much love

listening to: La Dispute - The Last Lost Continent

this is my brother
i love him. he had District Finals for soccer tonight. sadly the team lost. i gave him a hug and he cried. i almost cried to.

i remember the feeling so well. you tried so hard, so hard and you wanted it so bad but it ended and you didn't get there. I remember those important games, the tournaments and championships. I was on teams that got to the finals so many times but never came through with first place. so much heartbreak in it. i can remember crying over it. you're so tired, just spent from using all your energy and putting all of yourself into it but still fell short. it's such a small moment in the span of life but it meant so much at the time.

i feel ya bro.

luckily i got out of work early enough to catch almost all of the second half. i never made it out to any of the other games this year because i always had a work schedule conflict or something like that. it's too bad I didn't see more of the games. if my brother plays college ball i'll definitely have to come see him when i can.

speaking of soccer, i think i'm going to get to start playing again soon! my friend seth called me up and asked if i wanted to play, and i *really* want to play. i just have to see if work will let me work tuesday mornings intead of wednesday nights for a while. oh i really hope they're cool with that. i really want to get out there and play. it just feels so good. it would really be delightful if i had a spectator or two or more there once or twice, that is if anybody likes soccer and has a free wednesday night sometime.

alright. i need to make an important descision to either do homework or play a game. maybe a little of one then the other. :)

oh... oh... so good.

Listening to: La Dispute - Such Small Hands

"I think I saw you in my sleep, darling. I think I saw you in my dreams you were stitching up the seams on every broken promise that your body couldn't keep. I think I saw you in my sleep. I thought I heard the door open, oh no. I thought I heard the door open, but I only heard it close. I thought I heard a plane crashing, but now I think it was your passion snapping. I think you saw me confronting my fear, it went up with the bottle and went down with the beer and I think you ought to stay away from here. There are ghosts in the walls and they crawl in your head through your ear. I think I saw you in my sleep, lover, I think I saw you in my dreams you were stitching up the seams on every mangled promise that your body couldn't keep. I think I saw you in my sleep."

yep. i really like this band. La Dispute is for lovers.

i can relate, but only to the first.

yeah, this made me laugh. click it.

also, this next picture and the accompanying story made me loudly exclaim "what!!??!?" in the middle of class.

click on the image to get a bigger look at it. This is ELEVEN computers. i believe it's 6 laptops, 5 desktops, all running multiple wow accounts. the owner of this rig is the owner of 36 individual World of Warcraft accounts, which he plays simultaneously!! he wants to be able to raid all on his own. 36 shaman raid force. that's just nuts. it costs him over $5000 a year to hold all those accounts. when the new expansion comes out he plans buying 36 copies of the game, coming out to about $1500. what else does this guy do with his life to support this kind of habit? what is his job?

insanity. wow is a monster.

i've got this feeling...

listening to: Thrice - Digging My Own Grave



so i saw something on the drive home that immediately made me pretty upset, but now that i've looked into it more, i'm still a little upset but i understand more. it was a billboard with a picture of two people asleep in a bed with their feet sticking out from under the covers and in big letters it said "skip church." and then a website, www.daybreak.tv. what i assumed that the ad was promoting a way to watch the church services online and avoid going to church altogether. this got me all fired up and angry that a church would so boldly proclaim that physically being in church isn't important. church becomes just a place to go to learn a lesson or something like that, and community doesn't matter. community, accountability, discussion, questioning, encouragement, fellowship... all unnecessary now that you can sleep as long as you'd like and then watch the service at your leisure if you feel like it. i was disgusted.

well, then i got home and went to the site and read more about it, and it's actually just advertising their new late service sundays at 6pm.

but i did not like the message that got to me first from the ad. yes, it was definitely attention grabbing, but i didn't like it.

so here's something more important.
tonight while sitting in my car at work for a little over two hours, i was reading. first i read some of my marketing homework. mildly interesting. then i cracked open the book i have been a little nervous about reading, the book i didn't mean to buy but i saw it on the shelf out of the corner of my eye and i just felt like i really needed to read it, The Irresistible Revolution. Let me tell you, i only read the introduction and author's note and already i'm planning on how to get rid of maybe half the stuff i own, because really, i don't need it. not at all.

it was kind of crazy going from reading my marketing textbook which is all about business and consumers and products and... marketing, and then i start reading something that's totally unlike that, even opposed. as i was reading i felt really excited. i did what i do sometimes when nobody else is around and something has got me excited and happy and riled up, i started making weird noises. i really hope you who are reading this does the same thing beacuse otherwise i'm just going to look insane. you know, if you just feel so energized you might burst? i was making excited sounds, little yelps and shouts. uuggghhhh i think i sound crazy. haha. maybe undignified. yeah. i was laughing out loud to myself. lolling, if you will. this book is going to do something to me, change something in me, i really believe.

but in order for it to do that i need to read it. i'm thinking of giving myself an "in bed" time, where i stop what i'm doing for the night, hop into bed, and read for a while. maybe midnight or 1am. that might sound late, but trust me, i'm regularly up at those hours.

anyway, i need to go do something else for a bit, maybe homework. maybe a game. we'll see.

despite my car seeming to become worse almost daily, i'm still loving life pretty hxc.
ahaha.

EPIC!!!!!11!!1!

listening to: Apocalyptica - Path

THIS IS SO EPIC. I couldn't wait until later to post it.



and this one. wait until it gets to the recognizable tune



ahhhhh it's so nuts. these guys were all in school together and they all liked metal so they decided to start doing cello covers of metal songs. they played a show and a guy offered them a contract on the spot. now they have their own material and stuff. they're also a 3 cello group instead of 4, one guy left i guess. emo showed the first video to me last night and this band has just grown on me. it's kind of ridiculous, but that's the kind of stuff i like.

oh lulz. gotta love music.

the first thing

listening to: Thrice - Moving Mountains



I speak in many tongues to many men;
Argue with angels and I always win,
But I don't know the first thing about love.

I prophesy and know all mysteries;
All hidden things are opened up to me
But I don't know the first thing about love

I have the keys to open any door;
I give all of my possessions to the poor,
But I don't know the first thing about love

And moving mountains ain't nothing to me;
I've faith enough to cast them to the sea,
But I don't know the first thing about love

But all other things shall fade away;
While love stands alone and still holds sway
All other things shall fade away;
Into the ground into the grave

I give my body up unto the flames;
And never once have I denied your name
But I don't know the first thing about love.
--------------------------

1 Corinthians 13 1-3:
1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Dustin Kensure is my favorite.

here's a short cat video just because.


watch for tomorrows post, it will include a video involving metal music via intense cello.
for the win.

"with the camera as a witness"

listening to: Every Time I Die - The New Black
apology for some language


Baby, you got me all wrong
and maybe
i'm not at all down and out
i'm high and i'm in

don't you know who i am?
i'm the jaded one with pop insensitivity
and when i finish struggling
we can make our way to the dance floor and stand like strangers
in an elevator stuck between stories
i always find myself in the middle of your stories
-----

there's more to it but oh well. that's all i cared to type.
fun song. fun to play via guitar.

um.... now what?
i had these good ideas like 20 minutes ago and now where have they gone?

yesterday was good. jammed with alex and scotty then played a crossover munchkin game. good times. i won! :)

every time i sit down with my guitar i can come up with something new or make a little cool alteration to something i've already made up. at least it seems this way. i think i should sit down with my guitar more often.

hm... my stomach seems to want food.....
...whelp i just ate a sandwich, so that's taken care of now :)
oh, justin brought over lime jello for me to try with peanut butter. in case you forgot, i have a theory that states "anything that tastes good alone will taste as good or better with peanut butter." the theory stands strong. the peanut butter actually made the jello taste better. so there.

talked to my sister for a bit today, it was nice. have i ever mentioned that i love having sisters? well i do. hung out with west for a bit too, don't get to do that so much anymore. sad. things with arif and selvije are different, mostly because it's so much harder to carry on a conversation with them. i just like to give selvije some attention anyway, because i know she eats it up. she loves having me as a big brother and she just wants to sit by me and stuff. i think i feel most disconnected with arif. he's just a year younger than i am, but it never seems that way. how crazy must it be to live in this world where he doesn't comprehend the things that people say all the time? he is by no means stupid or dumb, but he just can't communiate at near the same level. i never know what to talk to him about, and then i have to choose my words in a way that he understands. it's just complicated.

today arif asked me (again, like last week) if kelley had a boyfriend. reme again expressed her regret that kelley wasn't around anymore and went so far as to suggest taking some sort of action to change that (o_o). last week my dad threw out his own "too bad" line to me. i know people, i know. i wonder what kind of reaction a new girl would get from them. i mean, kel and the previous girlfriend were at waaayyyy opposite ends of the spectrum of quality. my siblings had a bad reference point to start out with seeing. never again will i go through that, and i don't think my famly will let me, at least not easily. though reme would probably want to be great friends with whoever it would be, she's just like that. really nice.

i think this month and next are going to be similar to this time last year, but opposite.
because that's the way i feel about things.
and there's much to be learned when you don't know anything.
i don't know what love is.

"tonight we ride"

listening to: La Dispute - Said the King to the River
i LOVE this band



this was the first video i found of them with decent sound quality. too bad they didn't keep filming, it sounds like they were going straight into Future Wars.

boy does Jordan(singer) have a brain. the lyrics are so... strong. it's phenomenal. the words that come out of his head are great. the band as a whole is so awesome. they are so REAL. and a lot of that is thanks to the singer. he seems like genuinely one of the nicest people. always smiling. really gets into things onstage. puts his heart into it.

i can't wait for november 8, their cd release show at skelletones. anyone who reads this should go to it. it will be EPIC. real good bands all around there.

sidenote: emo is making tots at 2am and it's making me hungry. unfair.

just watch the video and listen. please love la dispute. they deserve it.

briefly

i'm writing a paper right now and i have to quote from three different historical memoirs. one of them is from Augustine.

"But what was it that delighted me save to love and to be loved? Still I did
not keep the moderate way of the love of mind to mind--the bright path of
friendship. Instead, the mists of passion steamed up out of the puddly concupiscence
of the flesh, and the hot imagination of puberty, and they so obscured and overcast
my heart that I was unable to distinguish pure affection from unholy desire."

years ago. i won't make the same mistake again. i won't let myself.

i looked up concupiscence, since i had never heard the word before.
concupiscence: 1. sexual desire; lust. 2. ardent, usually sensuous, longing.

vocab for the day. try to use it in a sentence in normal conversation this week!

burn me up

listening to: Thrice - Cold Cash and Colder Hearts
and my thoughts turned to this:

they are sick, they are poor
and they die by the thousands and we look away
they are wolves at the door
and they're not going to move us or get in our way

'cause we don't have the time
here at the top of the world
feeling all right
here at the top of the world

we hold our own by keeping our hearts cold

different god, darker skin
they are just not a burden that we'd like to bear
they are living in "sin"
there are so many reasons for us not to care

but i'm feeling all right
here at the top of the world
doing just fine
here at the top of the world

we've learned that money matters most
so we keep our cards held close
here at the top of the world

we hold our own by keeping our hearts cold
we learned what matters most so we keep our hearts cold

they are no one
they are no where
they are not our problem
no worth saving
nonexistent if we keep our hearts cold

they are no one
they are no where
------------------
what brought this song to mind was something Lauren posted, and I'll repost.

http://www.callandresponse.com

click on it first.

this got me thinking, got me caring, got me burning. this kind of thing matters! our financial institutions screwed up big time and the government is throwing hundreds of billions of dollars to bail them out? honestly people. how many others live with conditions so much worse than this? how much could have been done to help people who need it more?

i want a loud voice so i can cry out for things like this. so i can scream what the victimized and violated and voiceless can't get you to hear. i want to make music and i want to be a part of it. i need things like this to ignite passion in me. i can be so laid back and involved in my own life and the life of my friends, but sometimes i really get fired up for things. i need more things that put me in motion, i need that inspiration, that little shove in a direction. music music music. i love it. i want it to take me places. i hope it does. i want it to help me say things and have the words heard.

oh, where is this life going to take me?
it wouldn't be the same if i knew already.

i wonder...

listening to: The White Stripes - The Denial Twist
neat video. i like them.



i wonder what the garden of Eden looked like.
tropical? foresty? rolling plains? how big was it?
was there lots of open space or was it pretty thick with vegetation?

i bet it was really really cool and beautiful.

just waiting for the little busters

listening to: The Pillows - Ride on a Shooting Star
funny guys. responsible for most of the soundtrack to my favorite anime, FLCL. :)
i once made my own t-shirt with The Pillows' little buster dog logo on it and the "P!" sign on the back. i think it said "Little Buster" or something on it as well. it was a cool shirt. i lost it and that's just unfortunate.



so i wanted to write some verse using the word "dessicated" in some form because i like it. while driving home i came up with:

you bleed me dry, you dessicate
your lips lay lies, they fabricate
you built a cage with bitter hate
you led me in and closed the gate

so yeah, that's pretty negative. that's just what came to mind. i like rhyming. i wasn't even thinking about it but i just noticed i made all the lines 8 syllables. i like structure and symmetry and stuff like that.

i'm real happy.

any profound thoughts i might have had seem to have melted from my brain.
that probably means i should go to bed now.
yep. let's do that.
night.

rawrlykins

listening to: The Almost - Say This Sooner
fun song i think. i can get into it.
The Almost is fronted by Underoath's drummer/singer Aaron Gillespie



here's a picture of my gear for Zomb


had a great day.
great time at church and lunch with everyone.
work went well.
practice was awesome and hilarious afterwards.
oh how i wish sometimes that cameras were recording my life so i could show some of the events to other people. i couldn't stand up because i was laughing too hard.

i'm real tired and still have to do some reading for homework.

i love my family so much. it breaks my heart to have to visit them in different places. this stuff sucks.
that's all.

zomb zomb zomb!

listening to: nothing.... i'm trying to start the falling asleep process while i write this.

zomb was FUN!
bought an extra gun and 25 extra darts for the occasion. sneaking around in a large park with a group of people was awesome. i loved when someone gave the order to "get down" and all of us ducked and shrunk back into some bushes, effectively disappearing. i'm going to have to do this again sometime and i'm going to have to shoot more zombies. i only shot one this time. the only action i was involved in was at the end making the push to the helipad. theo made it. grats.

went and saw nick and norah's infinite playlist. liked it for a while i suppose. when it was over i was just kinda "meh." kinda makes me miss that i don't have a gf.

but the fact that i miss that kind of thing so much makes me want to give it up. i want to forget about it. to not care. this isn't some sad "i wish the pain would go away *tears*" i just don't want to be bothered or distracted by the thoughts. i don't want to look at a girl and evaluate her on potential relationship qualities. i just want friends.

but that's something i've been thinking a lot about and don't intend to go into tonight.

i'm just tiiiiired.
today has been a great day.

despite that i woke up at 6:50 to get to a meeting at work. the sun wasn't up yet when i woke. that's crazy. and i had to scrape frost off of the windows of my car. unfair. after the meeting i came home and slept for like 2 more hours. nice.

i'm up too late on a saturday night again. when will i learn? whatev.

well that was a trip

listening to: NOT the band Emarosa, because we left while they were playing

ok, this is going to be quick, because i'm tired and i have to wake up to be at work for a 7:30am meeting.

Theo drove alex and emo and i out to the Hartland Performing Arts Center which i discovered is quite close to Steve's east side home. here is something to keep in mind in case you want to see something at this venue:

Hartland Performing Arts Center = A junction where 3 hallways meet in a high school

i do not think i've been to a worse location for a concert. the carpeted floor and styrofoam ceiling made for poor sound quality all around. 90% of the people there looked like they just had class in this building earlier in the day. aside from band members, we think i was the oldest person there. oddly enough, i think i might have been in that school before...

Burden of a Day was cool. on the drive out there i found out from Alex that they have a new singer. i was disappointed to hear that. the new singer did well though and seemed like a nice and genuine guy, so it's k. we missed the 2 bands before Burden, but looking them up later emo and i found that one was not worth seeing but the other might have been cool. Emarosa headlined and they weren't real cool. we headed home.

in other news, i've been drawing like mad and i'm almost done with drawing homework for the week. perhaps i'll be able to finish it all tomorrow. and hopefully tomorrow i'll make it out to Zomb.

yep. time for bed.

oh... yeah?

listening to: The White Stripes - Fell in Love With a Girl



Firstly, a quote.
"my crotch is very illusive"
-Alex Hull

he might not have said "very" but you get the point.
taking lines out of context can be fun.

today i drew a lot. that's good because i needed to. i'm still not done. hopefully i'll get a ton accomplished tomorrow!

topic today: Proverbs.
Proverbs 27:5-6
"Better is open rebuke than hidden love.
6 Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses."

i'd like to follow up that quote with another quote from my good hero Dustin Kensrue:
"true friends stab you in the front"

if you love your friend or family member or anyone close, it is much more loving for you to rebuke them when they are clearly living an unhealthy lifestyle than it is to be silent and "kind." allowing them to continue on a destructive path is not being nice to them. i respect the person that can confront their friend when they see death creeping into their life. i find it hard to do. the wages of sin is death and all. a life of sin is unhealthy. i would challenge someone to come up with something that is considered a sin but is actually good for you physically, psychologically, emotionally. i haven't thought about it hard so if you think of something let me know.

well anyway.

Real Men was good tonight. i'm really glad i'm going. i'm really thankful for friends.
i'm really thankful for... beds. because i'm tired.

tomorrow hopefully i'm picking up a guitar pedal for $15. we'll seeee. night.

oh Canada

listening to: The Fall of Troy - Macaulay McCulkin
this song has pretty intense lyrics. this is the angry creeper boyfriend breakup revenge song. haha. a lot of the stuff he plays is different from the album version. he make stuff up good. look at his fingers fly while he sings!


so i just got done with a phone call to Canada.
I talked to a semi-hero of mine, Jonathan Mak. This man single handedly created the game Everyday Shooter, a game that really inspired me. We talked for about 20 minutes about games and music. It was really cool. He has an interesting laugh that I didn't understand until I realized he was laughing. It sounded like a fake panic attack, quick breaths. But that's part of what makes him him. I've found that lately my own laugh has changed from what it used to be. I can't really think of mine to describe it right now, but it's not masculine. haha.

Today is October 1. well, techinically october 2 now, but you know. i went to write the date on a paper in class today, and i turned to a neighbor and said "is it the 31st today?" and they said "yeah." so i wrote september 31st on my paper and handed it in. it wasn't until i got home that i realized that there is no 31st of september. i wonder what the teacher will think of me. haha.

i'm very tired and think i will cease to do homework right now. i'll watch this weeks episode of Heroes and then go to bed. tomorrow after class i'll be doing homework until i go to Real Men. then i'll do homework after that until i go to bed. then i'll wake up and do homework until the Burden of a Day concert. then saturday i have to be at work at 7:30 for a mandatory meeting. then i'll come home and either sleep more or do more homework. after work, i'll come home and do homework. because i have entirely too much homework to do right now. so i feel. all this drawing! blah.

i'm doing well. you? my life is pretty great, despite.

the method i chose to fix my amp head isn't working out. i need to look into how much it would cost to buy replacement pots(potentiometers). then i'd need to know how hard it would be to diy the replacing. the clean channel works seemingly just fine. maybe i could just use the amp head as power for the cab and then use pedals for effects changing? sounds possible.

today while in fiction class i wasn't paying much attention as we went over the assigned story for the day. i was reading other stories in our book. mostly the reason for this was i caught some phrases in other languages and i read the footnotes to see what they meant. french and latin.

"de gaiete de coeur" - from happiness of heart
"comme il faut" - as it should be
"il faut que jeunesse se passe" - youth will have its day
"respice finem" - consider your end (death)

first three are french, last is latin. i love phrases from other languages. i want to learn another language, even if it's a dead one. latin and greek fascinate me.

i'm contemplating giving up a couple things that i value and desire. not things like objects so much, but a giving up nonetheless. more another time.

now sleep time! after heroes. :)