"here is our hot chocolate"

listening to: La Dispute: Future Wars

i'm writing two blogs at once right now. this and my work one.
the title of this post comes from a song written by Jon Schlosser. awesome.

ok i just went and finished my work blog.
ok, and now i just got done reading my list of friend's blogs that i have.

lost internet sometime around noon on friday.
didn't really bother me that much, and i'm happy about that.
the internets are now back as of sunday and here i am.

the weekend was great. rode out to milford with bill, i was falling asleep a good deal of the way there. sunday we played music at kelley's home church, it was a lot of fun. i messed around/improv'd a decent amount. i'm really glad i'm skilled enough at guitar to be able to make some things up as i go along. yay for guitars!

so i've been thinking of this:
i'm staring into the eyes of compromise, and i'm smiling like a madman.
i can't recall ever having this feeling of interest yet uncaring. must be cautious.
i know i'm looking at a sub-standard ideal, and my smile is strange. it's paradoxal. i want it but i don't really care wether i have it or not and i think it's best that i don't have it. best to let time sweep this away i suppose. won't be long anyway, so is my guess.

mmm. i'm tired. i was going to ride my bike to work tomorrow but apparently i don't know how to get air into the tire properly. i think something is wrong and i'm going to get it checked out. we'll see.

ending with: we were just so young then, what did we know really? just kids.
and i want so bad to be up there on stage, playing my own music. so bad.

but yeah. how about bed? yeah.