in a small attempt at putting off homework for just a little bit longer i was going through old files, deleting some stuff that i don't need anymore, old homework and such. i came across an email i had written and sent over a year ago now, i saved a copy of it (because i do things like that sometimes).
i dropped a bomb on that girl.
oh, i wrote it well. everything i thought spilled out right into the words and i said what i meant and i made it clear. i'm scarcely ever that direct.
i can see now why i'm dead to her. rereading those lines and putting myself in her place... i'd be seriously messed up for a long while after all that happened afterward. there is nothing i can do to change what i did.
i don't know if you still keep up on me, i'd keep up on you if i knew how. i know what i did and i'm absolutely horrible for doing so.
maybe i've got it wrong and i have less to do with it than i think. but i won't know. i'm just sorry.
maybe someday i'll make a song about it and maybe you'll hear it and think of saying hi, just dropping a line. maybe.
i am so sorry, twin.
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