anew

listening to: Thrice - Image of the Invisible

yeah. i think we all do it because we want to be known.
we want to be open and known and accepted.

i know i can't just be speaking for myself.




that's really all i wanted to say, but suddenly i feel like going over my day.

slept for like 10 hours. woke up at noon when alex called. rummaged around the house for a bit, went to brian's and jammed for alex/brian/scott. really good, i like playing with them a lot. brian is just so good at guitar. typically and historically i get a sort of superiority complex about people who are better than me at things i want to be good at. music has been a topic of such feelings in me. i feel like i was that way at first after meeting brian, but now it's all cool and i only have respect and admiration. the ideas or thoughts that lead me to the rivalry feelings are stupid anway.
learned how to play Munchkin today. fantastic game.

left that jam session to attend one at my house with scott and tyler. that went pretty well. we'll need to work on things. actually, that's what we want mostly, things to work on. material to start with and have a goal in mind. here's hoping we do well, heh.

i feel like the first jam today went a lot... smoother than the second. maybe it's because we weren't setting out to accomplish anything except music. we weren't aiming for a song, just something to play. having a drummer probably helped a lot too. there were at least 2 things we played that really stuck out to me as being something that could end up as a really cool song. i think brian plays a big part in that too because of his general knowledge of music and what sounds good. that's how i feel at least. and i like how alex's brain works on bass and creating things. and i feel like we like all the right music. muahaha.

after the jamming i went to applebees with tyler, scott and miranda and had good food. after the meal i started bouncing my straw into my cup again, then we got an idea. try to bounce a straw into a beer bottle. wow. it took at least a half hour, but we did it. WE DID IT. tyler gets more props, he made it in twice before i made it in once, then tyler made it in again i think. but really, it was so epic. people looked when it happened, we drew a crowd (kind of). when it happened i stood up and cheered a little. the bartender looked over and asked if one of us made it in. haha.

then i went to hang out with Lauren. i had the distinct honor and duty of taking care of the her recently departed fish. it was a sad moment as i plucked it out of it's position floating in the middle of the tank, and then gave it the final flush. be brave Lauren, you'll move on. it's a starting anew kind of day. so we hung out and had good talks about good things and it was good. then went over to E4 and watched punk drunk love. wow that movie was just full of awkward. i felt uncomfortable watching it because i was afraid everything in it was going to go wrong with the guy and nothing would be resolved. actually, not a lot was resolved... but i'm going to try not to think about it too much.

came home, here i am, and i only have one question.
how did it get to be 3am?