gaahhhh

listening to: Russian Circles - Death Rides a Horse
had this song stuck in my head a lot today. lovely instrumental band. cool tune, dig it!



I DO NOT WANT TO DRAW ANYMORE.

DRAWING TAKES A LONG TIME.

THIS IS ALL IN CAPS BECAUSE IT IS SERIOUS.

I NEED TO GO TO BED AND STOP DRAWING.

but that means i'll have to continue drawing later. unfun.

i've been at this for over 3 hours. if you take away the time i've spent on distractions, the time spent drawing is less. but still. i'm not liking this.

i cannot express myself through a visual medium like this. i am drawing a copy of what i see on a page. pretty much anytime i try to draw something from my head it = fail. i can copy this stuff to a decent degree, but i can't get things from my head to the paper. i don't even think i can correctly visualize these things in my head.

this is going to drive me nuts. i can't wait to get to sculpting and hopefully away from pencil drawing. i am completely dreading the drawing "projects" that are going to suddenly be due in the middle of regular weekly homework.

and i have to get up early tomorrow morning to pick up food for the house because i have a roommate who doesn't want to wake up to do it. so tomorrow morning i'll drive out to jenison, pick up food, drive back home, take care of the food, then drive out to work. said roomate could have picked up the food, brought it home and then went back to sleep.

i am tired of drawing, and i'm hungry because i'm up late enough to where i feel like i need to eat another meal.

this is a comlpaining post. i stopped in the middle of a drawing to make it. i like writing far more than i like drawing.

blah.