"wait... what did you say?"

listening to: Chronic Future - Time and Time Again



like the song. video is cool too.

oh look! i made a new header for the blog today. i'm proud of it. please don't tell me it sucks.

i seem to have forgotten what i wanted to write about. silly.

i feel like i have a lot to do. homework-wise at least. i feel like i don't have time to do what i really want to do right now, which is play guitar. in church sunday i played a part from a Sigur Ros song to intro another song and then i played it a bit during. fun fun.

i like my fiction class a lot right now. i really enjoy reading things and then discussing what was read with others. this is the kind of thing i plan my Sunday School class to be like. i'm just really hoping that everybody will do the reading. i love to learn! i love knowledge. especially knowledge about the Creator of the universe.

so recently i got a nice psychological reminder on how awkwardly nervous i can get when confronted with a female of "interest." suddenly i'll feel totally inadequate to deal with the current situation and i'll typically not be able to think of a single thing to say. although i've found that i'm pretty good at repeatedly saying the word "yep" with pauses inbetween each reciting. this skill applies to more than just the aforementioned area, and is not restricted to "yep" but can also include variations such as "yup" and "yip."

i do believe i think far too much about what other people are thinking. that might not be so bad, but i then come to conclusions about what they must be thinking, but in reality i have no idea what their thoughts are. unless of course i were to ask them. but that would just be absurd, no?

it's one thing to think about some one and imagine conversations with them, but then it comes to irl and the castle is made of sand and crumbles in the tide.

well, i'm interested in working with stone now, starting with a solid foundation. the new castle will be cool once i get started on it. there i go being metaphorical.

perhaps i live in a hypothetical world full of assumptions are suppositions too often.

bottom line: i'm still just an awkward kid at heart.
and i have to laugh at myself in that.