my oh my

listening to: Yesterday's Riding - Our Lucid Dream
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GQnBr1vLVg
-best version of the song i could find via youtube. embedding disabled for it tho.
--there was another one with the song to a bunch of dbz clips.... no good. lulz.

happy birthday Nick.

today at work was good after it was over. somebody threw away my not-yet-empty arizona can after i left it in the break room for later. i was honestly really upset about it. i still am.

went to the beach today. it was fantastic. it was really foggy out. after running about 100 yards away from the group of people, i couldn't see them anymore. the water looked awesome with the fog all over it too. went swimming, played ultimate frisbee. enjoyed good times with good friends. i love the His House group.

on a different note, i've been thinking again on a topic i've thought of (and wrote about) before. i feel like i'm let down by people a lot. not that i'm depending on somebody and they don't come through, but seeing the behavior of people contrast with the way they say they want to live. i certainly am not implying that i am doing a better job than anyone else, but i wish there was somebody i could look to and say "yes, they've got it right. i want to be like them, do what they do, learn from them." we all have flaws. we all have vices. we mess up. we react badly to situations sometimes.

i dislike alcohol. i wish it wasn't around. i wish it wasn't even a choice wether to have it or not. there's a group of underage kids downstairs drinking and i hate it. i wish the police would show up and they would learn a lesson. the one who bought it for them would learn a lesson too. it' s just stupid.

why are you drinking? to get drunk. duh. why do you want to get drunk? because it's fun? what good can you do while drunk? who can you help? what's the benefit? where is there any good that isn't selfish in being drunk?

everybody compromises.

can i be strong enough not to? i wish i was just so i could show other people it's possible.