joy

tonight was one of the best times of my life. i'm not exaggerating.
such joy!

playing music was SO good. i loved it so much. i didn't want to stop, i wanted to play songs all night long. i felt so good, so alive, and i was playing it for God. his house ran a little differently today, with stations set up around the room and people were free to move about doing whatever they wished, and the band just played songs during it. it was freeing actually, not having the entire room standing and singing along, looking in your direction but not exactly at you. i played around more with the music, threw in an extra note/chord or two and just generally rocked out as best i could. i pretended to be like thomas erak, haha. i thought i was maybe going to break a string, i was really playing hard. worship is so awesome, and it's even more awesome for me when i'm playing the music, i'm so blessed that i get to do that.

there was so much joy in me. while playing my guitar, the joy swallowed all sorrow i could have possibly had. i want to be able to do this as much and for as long as possible.

after hh a handful of people went to lauren's to watch Across the Universe. i did enjoy that movie. on the drive home i sung my little heart out to my own music, it was fun. i like those people.

i'm meeting with my adviser tomorrow to see about what classes i still need to take, as well as talk about internships and the chance of me getting to skip out on a class that i really really don't want to take. i'll need to pray for that hardcore.

some things are better left unsaid. i'd do well to remember that sometimes.

bleh, i'm winding down from all the fun and excitement of tonight. i think i should crawl in bed before i crash.
farewell.